Friday, April 29, 2016


I just wrote a song two nights ago called "OK".

I wasn't even trying to write one. I was actually practicing other people's songs.

The topic of the song is about people that ignore other people because they are too busy with themselves or their internet lives.

Where the heck did THAT come from? I must feel really passionate deep down in my soul about that issue. I was simply singing "Little Sadie" and trying to memorize all seven verses of the song.

The melody is a little haunting and a bit syncopated....I LOVE IT. My serious songs are hard to swallow sometimes so I don't like to sing them or post them on my YT site because I don't know what type of reaction I will get and I don't like reading other people's opinions about my SERIOUS stuff because it is too core related and tender for me to deal with when people criticize......and believe you me, people love to criticize. (myself included) I don't like it. The best way to avoid criticism is to do nothing at all in your life. I don't like that either. I want to do EVERYTHING!! How do I develop that rhino skin to ignore the critics and do what I want to do from my heart, despite the stumbling block bullies?

THAT is the million dollar questions. I have the answer, but unfortunately, the critics won't listen or care what it is.....It is a vicious circle of big old fat POOP, isn't it?

All I can say is:


Wednesday, April 27, 2016

There's This Old House in Pilot Point Texas...

I've been taking pictures of this house
every April for the last 4 years.
I have been documenting the dilapidation of it.
It was built around the turn of the century.
A customer came to me in January
of this year and told me
that the house was being torn down.....
This is one of my life projects.
How can this be?
But, it is. and houses change ALL THE TIME!
It doesn't matter if we are ready or not...
Does it?
I am now on the lookout
for a new project to document...
love old houses!

Thursday, April 14, 2016

Praying for Someone to Die....Is it Wrong?


Is it wrong to pray for someone to die?
I know that sounds so cruel.

Is it wrong to pray for someone to take their last breath today?
I know that sounds heartless.

Is it wrong?
Is it wrong when the someone is in pain?
Riddled with cancer?
Not able to communicate or move their body anymore?

You designed the process of life and death. The odd thing is that for things to live, other things have to die. If seeds don't die, trees won't grow. If plants and animals don't die, we can't live. If we don't let our old lives die, we can't have new lives. It seems that everything hinges on life and death.

I guess I am praying for someone to die so someone can live, if that makes sense. I guess that I am praying for that someone to die so that THEY can live again with You dear Lord.


What a way to exist.....

The LORD is close to the brokenhearted
and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
Psalms 34:18

Saturday, April 2, 2016

I Miss You Has Replaced I Love You

Why is it SO hard?

You have been gone now for over a year and it is STILL hard.

I looked at a picture of us and cried......again.

I miss you has replaced I love you.

Oh, I still love you.

You can't receive that anymore.

I miss you is for ME.

It is so I will remember how important love is for the people that still remain in my life.

Miss you dad!

Me and Dad